Crossroads

I approach a crossroads in my life; and it's doorway seems unavoidable.

As I step outside myself and look at my life, in a seemingly third-person perspective, I cannot help but notice that I must soon decide.

In the one hand I have the option of living a great and fantastic life.
In the other hand I have the opportunity to live a life full of God and surpassing this simple "great".

I'm not going to lie, there isnt a bad option.

but,

Hear my heart. I want to walk where very few have walked. I want to live hand-in-hand with the Almighty. I want His Presence to be my greatest concern. I want His breath and heartbeat to beat to the same rhythm as my own.

This entails radical obedience and extreme risk.

Yet it is the safest place I can possibly live.

If I want to live a simply "fantastic and great" life I might become a teacher. Or I might become a pastor. I might have an occupation and a family. I would see The Lord move among people, and I would draw closer to Him. I might have a car and a payment, and I might clock in or punch in for forty hours a week. Wife, kids, love, house, dog, the whole shibang.

All of those are great things that I love.

However,

This life of absolute yielded-ness is shrowded in mystery. I dont feel like there are obvious examples or paths to use as a directional map. I think it is an extremely rare life.

now- lets hear me right- Im not talking about your life, Im talking about mine. So before you get all up in arms about how "Kendall doesnt think Im following God"... thats not what Im talking about.

I am desiring 100% obedience; and I have no single idea of what that looks like. Maybe it doesnt change much on the outside... I dont know... I just know that there is more of God and I must uncover it. I must see His face more.

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